and we have a winner....

got into my first fight today with my beautiful board. not sure how we ended up in an argument??? i thought we were getting along splendidly. it was a lovely morning in Saladita... sunny, uncrowded, long, long lefts, and fun sizes for us to play on... and out of no where... on the "last" wave of the monring... WACK! She decided to get fiesty with me and smack me upside the head. was i getting to cocky? who knows... but with blood dripping down my face, i decided to call it a day and let her take the win. with loving angels always looking out for me, i was not the least bit surprised when the universe blessed me with a doctor waiting on the shore. he kindly cleaned my battle wound and suggested that i get a stich or two to avoid any gaping scar on the fragile skin of the forehead. i took him up on his advice and went to the nearest "centro de salud." again, with my loving angels watching over me, i was blessed with an "amor" (love) of a doctor. he took excellent care of me... cleaned me right up, gave me a nice numbing shot of novocane and a tetnus shot for good measure, then and sewed my little wound back together... he even let me play with his pet scorpion!

what a guy! and when it came time to pay, he refused to take any money from me! wtf?!? a doctor that cares out of the kindness of his own heart? unheard of! ... but not in pilar's reality ; ) ...

namaste little ones.

Habitat Co-Creation

Yola and myself have once again co-created an amazing habitat for our extended stay in Troncones. Beach front home for the outrageous price of $300 a month. Yola has her yard to run and play all day, while mama hangs out 10 mins up the way at "work." At the moment, sidekick PP, the primary caretaker of la casa de David, is away for we don't know how long... So it's just us girls, ruling the house, frolicking in the yard, outdoor moonlit showers, yummy home cooked meals, and good company.... did we do good or did we do good?

Entering Phase II

Recap - Phase I was the initiation period. The, "ok, I can really do this" time. I was so excited to leave on this "exploration," but the day I was struggling to pack up and leave, my heart stopped for a minute as I finally grasped the reality of my decision to really, really leave. Holy Shit. I am doing what? Going where? Never coming back? Seriously? Up until then, it had just been a thought, and suddenly it hit as reality. I feel like the first Phase, settling into the Sayulita Pit Stop gave me the time to gather my courage. Yes, it was a little scary to say goodbye to my family and friends and be completely on my own... But the more I let go, the stronger I felt... I came to realize that everything I needed I carried inside "my" heart and the "need" for "external" support was swept away. I was finally allONE.

And moving into Phase II at the Present Moment, I decided to set my intention to one of cleansing. This would be a time where I could really I could focus on cleaning from the inside out.. surrounded in a loving, nurturing environment. Yoga, meditation, nutrition, tranquility, heat, ocean... If I am asking for a conscious environment, then I better be damn clean myself, right? I want to be looking at clean mirrors, so first I need to clean and polish up the bits of old dirt around the edges. With that full moon intention, one day later, I get hit by the "sick" train... at full speed. Wack! First in the throat... the swollen glands... the all over aches... the fever in the middle of a tropical summer.. and then straight up to the head. I really thought for 24 hours my head was going to EXPLODE! BAM BAM!!! Things were seriously rocking up there... and all I could think was... breathe. This too will pass. Gratitude for the uncomfortable sensations moving stiffened energy though my body... AND.... FUCKING GOD PLEASE MAKE THIS STOP... By the end of Day II, my good buddy Mike took pity on my sad, sick little being, and took a few of us up to the healing waters of the hot springs. Words, again, do not suffice for this MAGICAL experience... but just so you can get a lil taste: fire flies.. dancing ferries... almost full moon reflecting off the healing waters...night symphony...coconut trees...lush...tropical vegetation...the sound of moving spring water...beautiful beings of light and love sharing energy in silent mediation... a small piece of heaven. How could I not be healed? Buddy Mike was right on. A good night sweat, and head was all cleared up and squeaky clean... minus the snot run off, which is nothing to complain about. Who doesn't like to hock a loogie every once in awhile and clean out that old lung mucus? But wait... the cleanse doesn't end there... Were working are way from top to bottom... So adios nasty head-cold-fever-aches... and hola yucky stomach flu... the rolling nausea, the clammies, the pukes, the runs, the works... Day III. 3 being the Magic Number, and viola! Brand New Insides! And feeling goooood.... Mission acommplised/ing? Energy moving. Very nice.

I feel that as I release and let go of whatever it is that I am releasing and letting go of, consciously and unconsciously, im making space for higher, clearer energies in my life. It really is working. The connections im feeling, within myself and with these amazing beings im crossing paths with are definitely of another conscious. Gooooing uppppp....

and on a side note, tropical, humid climate makes great practice for non-attachment lifestyle. the salt, ocean, humid air eats everything up. Better not fall too in love with any possession. enjoy it in the moment, while it's there and functioning, and don't be surprised when it stops working or falls apart. asi es la vida... always changing... inviting you all to take that practice with you and not just keep it for myself down here in the tropics...

besos.

(picture of the place where I get to play yoga teacher....what a princess, eh?)

how does it get any better than this?

so... here i am. At "the" Present Moment in ZIJ. 4 days in and my head is spinning... 3 months ago, I take off from my life in Cali with no idea what is in store for me. That's called "faith" from what I hear... ("faith is what gets us out of bed, gets us on an airplane to an unknown land, opens us up to the possibility that life can be different. Though we may repeatedly stumble, afraid to move forward in the dark, we have the strength to take that magnitude of risk because of FAITH")... I keep thinking to myself, how does it get any better than this?!? And guess what? IT DOES.

I left on this trip not knowing what was in store for me... no plans, not itinerary, no nothing... Going off on pure FAITH... And after some time in Sayulita, I really started to wonder... What the hell is this all about? I am living the dream of traveling though the South, but now what? And POOF, doors open to now....

the Present Moment. what can i say? a very special place. a vortex... dreams really do manifest in a matter of no time. eternal sleeps. (seriously, i fall asleep at whatever time, and feel like I sleep for 4 days and 5 nights. it's odd... but I love sleep, so I am NOT complaining). frog choir at night (careful, one might launch itself right at your face if you get to close). intense dreams. gourmet food. pimp bamboo huts. silk? sheets. beautiful, beautiful guests.... Tao, I heart you!... and Claudia + Roberto... and Heinz + Leslie, and Chesney... wait, how long have I been here?!? Who are these people that I have fallen in love with in a matter of days? Staff is always friendly and smiling. (Ana, you are the cutest!)The management actually cares and loves... totally bizarre concept. I get paid for sharing love... yoga and massage. Wait till you see my stage(pictures to follow soon)... Margot, my perfect compliment to yoga and massage. What a team! The synchronicity here is uncanny... Where am I? I have no clue, but if you need and airport code to get here, it's ZIJ. Best of luck...

And a mention to Real Ray and sidekick mom Maurice. Rockin South Africans. Will you adopt me? Love, love the accent and the voice. Just keep talking because it's music to my ears. "CALIENTE!" - como dice mi amiga Ana. These people know how to live... and the rest of the Secret Spot-ians... my birthday brother/Ukalalie playing Joey, Shana-the-Westfalia-mama-of-Rusty. Top Spots on the traveling meter...


i know you are all probably sick of hearing this... but hot DAMN, I can't help it... I'm so unbelievably GRATEFUL for all of this. But I have to take some credit... right? This is the reality I choose to manifest, and i think I am finally get the hang of it... but NO attachments. "everything is moving onward to something else, inside us, and outside. seeing the truth is the foundation of FAITH. life is transition, movement and growth. however solid things may appear on the surface, everything in life is changing, without exception." which is why i love traveling... the Cliff Notes to change....

and wait! there's more.... we have waves AND a wine list.... AND it's raining mangoes...

to be continued.... over and out. the present moment.

p.s. today, the whole sky was a rainbow as the sun started to set. no words. no photos. thank you, thank you, thank YOU! I love you.

one more thing

a story. just for a little variety... my horoscope for the week says...

"In July 1969, astronaut Buzz Aldrin was the second human to walk on the moon. That was the good news. The bad news was that as he carried out his heroic feat, he wet his pants. He testifies to the event in the documentary film In the Shadow of the Moon. I suspect you may soon have a comparable experience, Libra: experiencing a little boo-boo or no-no while you're riding high. Though it may make you feel vulnerable at the time, it's trivial in the big scheme of things and isn't likely to stick with you. How many people even know that Aldrin accidentally peed at his moment of glory?"

and in fact, they were right... I'm in all my glory as I soar along the oceanside cliffs, basking in the beauty that surrounds me.... When.... my oil light goes on. i really thought i might be fucked.... (sorry, mom... you can skip this entry....) so, oil light goes on. not really wanting to stop and turn the bus off because i also have a faulty battery. i know the bus needs some oil, which luckily i have, and i have no choice but to turn her off on the side of the road and pray i can get her going again, at least with a push and a roll jump start which i have mastered... (yes, yes, i know... i definitely am a moron for ignoring the problem, especially for the drive... but that is that, and this is now... ) put the oil in, and of course i go to start the bus, and NOTHING. I do the push and pop out the clutch in 2nd gear and NOTHING. shit, shit, shit, shit... no more room for rolling. no one around. in the middle of nowhere. it's late afternoon. i have no idea how far i really am from my destination.... no bueno my friends. i start to shake. and pray.... the guardians came through. the bus miraculously starts. go team! im saved from my ass from getting stuck in the middle of nowhere.... which i am sure would have resolved itself without major upsets, but nonetheless it was a nicer ending to the scare, si o no?

and here i am. bus, yola, and me. promise to get a new battery and a full check up in the next pit stop... lesson learned.

out and about

"on the road again.... just can't wait to get on the road again...." Should this be the theme song for my life? It seems to be a reoccurring theme... But what I decided today, that this chosen traveling lifestyle is good practice for me. It goes well with letting go... A great lesson to be learned. We all tend to define ourselves by our roles and our possessions. It's what society has told us that "separates" us from the rest... makes us "individuals." My friends, my family, my job, my house, my toys, my town, my religion, my politics, my beliefs, my my.... bla, bla, bla.... What are we without all these "things?" What happens when you risk "everything?" You get it all. There is nothing the be gotten and there is nothing to be had in a true non-dualistic life... I just saw a movie where the last line of the protagonist was, "I left everyone in my life. But in the end I realized that no one ever left me." How can we really leave anything if it is all just ONE? The test lies in the act of letting go... everything that you think defines who you are. And traveling is a good way to live that life. New places, new friends, new faces, doesn't leave as much room for attachment. Keeps me living in the present moment... Im so happy to be meeting all these new people and seeing all these beautiful places, but as quickly as they come, they go. They are gifts from the universe meant to be enjoyed in the moment, but not to be held onto. What is meant to be in your life, will be, and no amount or worrying or clinging will change it. I open my heart to the universe and welcome all it's blessings in whatever form they come...

adios sayulita

a quickie.... yola is surely hot haning out with Marisol, and mama is hungry for sushi.... but wanted to let the readers know that just in case they are looking for me in Sayulita Google Earth... the Chicas Aventureras have flown the coop... it was not an easy deaprture being that it is a very special place where dreams really do come true... BUT as we all know, the only constant in life is Change, and it was our time... I rested and was pampered in the Spa de los Dioses, and now im ready to embark on Phase II. http://presentmomentretreat.com/ Again... Lucky, lucky, lucky girl... But this time, I get to be the one pampering...loving... sharing....

TEAM LOVE - Expanded

ok, so here it is. the beginning of TEAM LOVE... "esta apenas esta comenzando...." (-Chile, BF Sayulita)... my mission of now is Love. everything in the name of Love. there are many of us out there procuring Love in all ways and forms and why not take recognition in our mighty intentions and see how that intention of Love is manifested throughout the universe? AllONE. and this is where TEAM LOVE is born... beings making a conscious effort to Live Love. Who doesn't want to be a part of that team? Love is the answer and will heal our wounds, giving birth to a new era of simple joy and peace.

LOVE. COMPASSION. GRATITUDE. Guides of TEAM LOVE.

remember a few blogs back i mentioned the phrase "why hate what you create?" whether we believe it or not, we are the creators of all, and essentially AllOne manifesting our reality in every moment. (ONEmind expressed in many... variety is nice, right?) so, when you experience/perceive something that provokes a "negative" emotion or feeling, take a moment to step back and find compassion and beauty in your creation. it is an aspect of Self and is an opportunity to learn. knowing that you created it, any sense of hate or resentment is something that you are directing back towards Self. Ho'oponopono fits in perfectly here. My BFotS, Karla, shared this one with me and I believe it is worth passing along and researching more for those that this resonates with... "im sorry. i Love you." We redirect that initial sense or feeling of disgust and through acceptance and compassion, redirect the energy back to Love.

We train in Love. We live in Love. We act in Love. We are Love.

TEAM LOVE SAYULITA.